GAG

The truth is I hate this diet. I have always hated low fat. I love meat and vegetables seasoned with butter, mayo, soy sauce and garlic. I just find it hard to stay on that diet when I am paying out over $200 a month on electric bills. With only $150 a month for groceries and potatoes at $10 for a 50# bag it is easier to do LF.

There are other problems besides taste. I hate eating all this processed food. I am overloading everything with salt to give it flavor. A low fat/low cal diet can only find seasoning in herbs (I am allergic to most), hot seasonings (violently allergic), which leaves salt and sugar both of which gag me. I don't care for most fruit - too sweet. I love chips but I have never eaten more than one bag a month. I might toss in a can of salted nuts or trail mix but this was the extent of my snacking. Now I am loading up on fruit cups and baked chips everyday. Salt and chemicals - yummy. Also I cover all the potatoes and rice with canned sauces because homemade ones are too full of fat and calories so goody, more chemicals and salt.

Also all this bread. I have always believed that too much wheat is bad for you. All that fermenting going on in your stomach. Just bubbling and boiling away. I used to go through one loaf of bread every couple of months now I am shoving 3 or 4 loaves or more down me each month. Double yuck.

And I mean I am forcing this food down because I am definitely NOT enjoying it. I load it with salt to kill the taste. Eating has become a duty that I avoid half the time then I overload in the evening because I am too hungry.

Also the low fat diet always leaves me tired and sluggish. Since the second week I have been sleeping more and more. I was getting up at 9 each morning. Then it was noon. Now I get up at 9 but am so tired I lay back down and sleep until 1 or 2pm. Now it is until 4 or 5pm. I get up for a few hours in the evening, cook dinner, watch TV, read a few emails and go back to bed. I have no strength but I also think some days I avoid getting up because I would have to face this crappy food.

Today was weigh in day. I am still at 350. I am not losing or gaining just struggling to swallow this lousy food. This happens every time I try to do LF. I pump myself up and convince myself to like it the first month or two. By the end of about 6 weeks I am sick of it. I fix dinner and sit starring at it. Sometimes I just break down in tears because I absolute hate it so much. I always feel sluggish and bloated on the LF diet.

I have two more weeks before grocery day. I am going to continue to fight with the low fat diet. However, now that the electric bill will be down I may try to buy extra meat and veggies next month and go back to low carb. I will have to see how it goes.

Happy Dieting *sigh*
Linda B in TN holding by a fingernail @ 350